This has ruined a huge amount of my life and I get scared a lot. Hi, I am 45 years old and I have had horrific fears of hurting others, mine mostly involves knifes or other sharp objects, scissors etc. While watching the show I had a sudden panic attack and I started thinkin what if I do what this guy does to people, the character was killing girls randomly…my brother was at hme that nyt and I started hving thoughts that I may stab him in his room…ever since I. They hang out on video apps and social media with their friends, but they miss seeing them in person. Well, the fact that you came here to post about your thoughts shows that part of you acknowledges that these acts are wrong and you want help. Whenever I can relate to an article like this one my brain always tells me that I’m different and I’m the exception and I really am capable of doing these things I recently made the decision to get engaged and that’s what scares me even more because now I’m afraid for the woman that I love. We'll tell you what the research says and what can help. I think there are also several online moderated support groups that might help you connect with other people who have recovered and are working on maintaining their gains. To help my determination, I often read online to check whether I can indeed get over this, but I dont find any consistent answers. Anand…I am 46 with 3 1/2 years sober from almost 30 years of drinking. My husband says I’m just over reacting but the terror feels so real that I can’t shake it. Your email address will not be published. So I’ll repeat what I said at the top. I was suddenly exposed to my worst fears without any coping mechanism. It feels like the last four years of hard work have been for nothing.”, I was suddenly facing the reality that not only were teens ill-equipped for this crisis, they’re actually in a much worse position than adults. because I know I never hurt anyone. I resisted for the same reason. My aim is heal as best as I can because as I said this has put a block on my grieving process as well. Here are the ten items David selected to bring on his survival journey to Vancouver Island: 4. Some fine print, required by WIRED: By submitting your Covid Spring story you are agreeing to WIRED's User Agreement and Privacy Policy found at WIRED.com. Although rituals can be hard to resist, they make the thoughts worse in the long run. They seemed to be different topics. When I talk to people about it, I slowly forget about it. My mother in law has told me these thoughts are “normal” with depression. When I heard that I thought, “How awful.” Then I instantly felt that fear sweep over me. I would agree that the world we live in can influence the way that OCD pops up. Trying to convince my family that I need one is also very difficult as they feel it’s in my head. Leave tomorrow for tomorrow. I am feeling very troubled and lost. and that is very scary for me because, again, it makes me feel as though i want to hurt someone. I found that accepting my thoughts and just thinking them makes the anxiety lighten a little bit, but I’m still so terrified of acting on these urges. I was so frightened. I can now feel and sense these urges and can deal with them in my own way. With reassurance seeking questions, the answer will be satisfying for a short time, but then the doubts will inevitably creep back. Like his life affects my completely. it’s very hard to control sometimes but I’m scared to tell anyone about it and my mother does not care for my thoughts and I do not want to get in trouble with anyone or thing or be sent to a mental hospital either. These were my “getaways.” I would pick a time in the day to let my anxiety go through these channels of expression. Hi I am 12 years old and I love to hang out with my 5 year old cousin. I couldn’t even look at knives or any sharp object because i would almost go into a complete panic attack. I am so worried I will be one of those crazy moms who will drown her child. I feel awful when i get them. Found inside – Page 359... 170-171 Simon, Carly, 23 sleep problems sleeping alone, childhood fears, ... 166-167 teenagers, 327-328 Social Phobia, 167 social phobia, 22-23 Social ... This is what I think in my mind I LOVE m family and my husband try’s to help and assures my constantly I would never do anything crazy but he doesn’t understand what I’m feeling.. I refuse to see a doctor in person seeing as how I can not help but feel this way about those in the medical field and frankly, refuse to pay the outrageous fees included with only a Chance of successful aid. I have great relations with loved ones but everyone else I come across I fear if they do bad I could kill them if I had no self control, what if my self control dispersers. Dear Visitor, Irishhealth.com is offline for the foreseeable future to undergo a full review. Are your violent thoughts pleasurable? The mere fact that I am worried about the content of this OCD only means I am a good person, this takes so much energy to remember and is a constant battle. I believe I have always had OCD, as when I look back on my childhood there were times when I wouldnt want people to touch to my belongings and move them, I had to constantly wash my hands because I didnt think they were clean enough, and mental images that were disturbing to the point where I would have to make a ritual to make the thoughts go away. I couldn’t eat or sleep for days but after a couple weeks I was able to rationalize my thoughts and my fear that I directly caused my mother’s death had faded. Since then, I’m feeling very bad and last week seems like it got worse. I recently just bought a puppy and had a horrific.intrusive thought about harming her by putting her in the oven. I dont need to add talking to an imaginary friend to my list of ailments. I’m afraid that my thoughts reflect who I am and what I want and they are incredibly distressing I feel like I have no say in who I turn out to be. I thought it was just panic attacks. Its especially hard to cope up with a reccurance when the fear and thoughts havent been there for a while. I am extremely tormented with ocd and have had tons of different.themes and EXTREME anxiety doubt and guilt. I’m on.meds but I need talk.therapy and ughhh its just terrible. I hate these anxiety feelings. I had no regret or emotion about this. Why would this thought come into my head – I still ask myself this. First, I just want to say that it is so great that you are getting your daughter help. I would even play into the images sometimes, to keep from doing anything. I believe this fear developed in aggressive obsession although I have yet to see a therapist or be diagnosed. Glad to hear that you’re getting on the right track with things. I would really like an answer for the bottom part. If I had wanted on them before, and even now when I know I have OCD and yet take pleasure in some of my thoughts, will I be safe knowing I will not act on them again? I don’t know, but for the time being I want to invest time in actually living my life instead of trying to control my thoughts. I think of being locked up and hurt in jail. I have been a loner for most of my 17 year old life, mainly because of how shy i am. At first I was not able to leave my house without having an attack. Work on beating your OCD today. ?” Do I want to do it, can I do it?! I had thoughts here and there and sometimes panicked about my health too. Found inside... fear of a vague and unidentifiable spot on a chest X-ray, fear of teenagers in hip-hop regalia crossing an unlit street, fear of sleeping alone, fear of ... It does sound like some rituals may be sneaking through (primarily checking compulsions). I am saddened to read all of the stories about others who have this issue in their lives, such young ages, much too young to have to deal with such turmoil. Asking other people for reassurance that you’re a good person. Is this still OCD? In conclusion, Be honest. I am trying to overcome one thing and it caused another. Connection? Back then, I did not have the courage to talk about these to anyone as I was too embaressed and felt horrible for having these thoughts. After that i just kept it to myself. Taken from Mary Shelley’s Author’s Introduction to the 1831 edition of Frankenstein, this quote describes the vision that inspired the novel and the prototypes for Victor and the monster. Hi am 16 and terrified all hurt some I have suffered with this thoughts since 12 one day my little cousin was sleeping when I went over to him I thought what if I strangled him i started to cry I cried for weeks then the thoughts moved on to knife s I don’t even hold a knife in my hand now couple of days ago I went to my friend’s house he was watching a film about this guy who mmurderd then raped woman I was really scared that knight walking home all I could think about was what if i turned in to that person am my safe around my family and now I ask my self who’d I rape any one and even if i would bary them am so scared that I could hurt a child please somebody help me, I am the nicest person you could meet. Found inside – Page 195... whereby the child's refusal to sleep alone could be excused. Examples which were offered included children's expressed fears or anxieties of the dark, ... No one knows i know. Am I turning into a crazy serial killer? In general, though, individuals with harm obsessions can benefit greatly from cutting down on their avoidance behaviors. Watching the life slowly drain from them. I wish I wasn’t troubled with these thoughts, I wish I could be a kid… but i feel like I can’t…. Can you please help? I was given medicine for my anxiety and I never took anything longer then a day cause I read about the side affects and freaked me out and I went to therapy twice and never finish cause I didn’t want people to think I was crazy I was ashame still is so a week ago I think I have bad OCD I start feeling like I want to hurt myself or hurt any random person obessive thoughts in my had i started reading online thinking i was so crazy person going to snap and hurt people I’m scared I need help. The teen years are also a period of physical, emotional, and social upheaval. I don’t want to be a bad parent but sometimes my thoughts are so bad, even silly. There are worse things in the world than OCD, even if to us who suffer from it think there isnt. If they are impulses they must not JUST be intrusive thoughts…etc. Talk it over with your therapist or doctor, who can give you guidance. Idk I feel like I am crazy. I crave the suffering of others. "The book is well organized, well detailed, and well referenced; it is an invaluable sourcebook for researchers and clinicians working in the area of bereavement. Some of these might sound textbook because I have researched my thoughts but the above mentioned are common thoughts I have and are very concerning because we are trying to start a family. It is surprisingly common. Would it be the fact that for them, the violent thought would be pleasuring? From time to time they still do. It all started right after I had my daughter. i am jobless for 6 years cause of depression and many other reason. Recovery from aggressive obsessions is based on actively facing your fears and eliminating any avoidance behaviors that perpetuate your OCD. One time I felt like I was going to jump out a window. I dont know if you still check these, but this just helped me tremendously. It gives me anxiety to the point where I get palpitations and my heart races. Literally. I am questioning my childhood, ethics, morals, and everything that has made me who I am. For a long time I turned that hurt inward and often thought about killing myself, hurting myself in small ways but usually just mental torture. I realized that I somehow needed to release my obsessions in a safe environment and not suppress them. Hi, I am currently waiting for therapy sessions. I would never hurt them, but why do I feel like I would tho? Im on Ativan and Luvox. Ever since I was little, I’ll have to say around 7-8 all I can see are these depictions and images of me hurting others or myself. Have you ever heard of that problem. I much prefer the meds than the effects of this disorder. I have had harm ocd for a long time now almost 19 years. As in, stabbing someone, etc. Violent Obsessions it is keeping me from loving or enjoying anything, and i am scared that it wont pass. Chemtrails? Exposure thing works well don’t avoid the fear!!! My name is Jake and I am 23 years old. However, in actuality, these thoughts are simply a consequence of OCD, a neurobiological condition. Use this pain to fuel your compassion for hurting people. I am hard work and I am immensely grateful for those that have stuck it out and understanding of those who can’t. Here are some avoidance behaviors that are common for individuals who are afraid of killing or harming other people. Wow, Sarah, that sounds incredibly difficult. Example: No “X’s” means no fear, “5” means mild fear, “10” means it causes high anxiety, and anything higher than “13” means it causes a considerable amount of fear. This is really hurting my determination. Things were looking up at the time, and they’ve stayed pretty rosy by comparison. I feel like I actually want to kill them. If you are a healthcare professional, please visit Irishhealthpro.com for news, clinical updates and the latest in … It is very hard but you can get through it. If it’s OCD, ERP can be a very effective treatment. I am fed up with them. I have been avoiding knives and even withdrawing from playing with my dogs because I’m scared I will act on a scary thought (or are they impulses!?) I have meds for the anxiety. I don’t want to feel this way but have no choice. I have Ocd and have been put on zoloft from pristiq. You want to get to know your OCD better than it knows you. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! What is the next step I should take in my self-treatment. But when I hold so much angry in. 2 Corinthians 12:9 , Hebrews 13:5 and James 1:2-4. every day 60000 thoughts(minutes) flash through mind.you have to do your best not to think about bad thoughts.just please do your best.you can.try to concentrate on great peaceful things not allowing that bad thoughts flash through your mind. Your story is a good example of this concept. What has happened to me? The second is people who say “I saw this movie…”, “played this video game…”, or “read about this news article…”, show how violent sensory input is often the cause/catalyst for their “harm” OCD. Nothing is working so can u please help. They mourn the losses of (in order of increasing importance) prom, school groups, sports, and graduation. Now, my anxiety has gripped me to point of wanting to implode, to sleep endlessly. Re: books, check out my blog post about OCD self-help books via the “All Posts” link at the top of this page. Other than that, the people in hiding used the room mainly for storage purposes. I dont beilieve the thought, but it scares me that I might beileve it one day. I really don’t want to go back on medication, I’m hiding my real name for privacy reasons. Do you enjoy the thoughts you’re experiencing? Hi, Hood (or any random shooter) could shoot up a place…as a human being, what’s to stop me from doing the same. That my thoughts of rapidly killing them and actually reaching for the object to do this horrible thing. I have recently been suffering from paranoid thoughts. The hormonal changes that come with puberty conspire with adolescent social dynamics to make them highly attuned to social status and peer group.”. I constantly think to myself ‘I know what is real and what is not but why does these thoughts come into my head?’ It has really complicated my grieving process, as my mind is so clouded. Required fields are marked *, Steven J. Seay, Ph.D. | 11380 Prosperity Farms Road #209A | Palm Beach Gardens, FL 33410 | (561) 444-8040. So I’m not asking what I have I’m asking how I can stop it. Since then I learned about OCD and its many faces. As an adult, he took this passion and traveled to Belo Horizonte, Brazil, where he founded the Per Ardua Wilderness Ministry and the Bushmaster Wilderness Survival School. Good points all around. This website contains general information about psychological topics. I just think it’s important for you to know that your daughter WILL get through this, and even if she isn’t able to express it now, you are doing the best possible thing for her. I started shaking and freaking out that i was a crazy phycopath. Dr. Seay, It doesn’t mean your ocd will be cured (I don’t know if we are ever cured but it is treatable!!!) You may want me to analyze this to death, but I’m sick and tired of falling into mental rituals. I wouldnt wish it on my worst enimy it all started when i was 16 I tought out the blue i was a pedofile i worried so so so much but them my head would think no maybe im a murderer. The thoughts are going to happen, I accept that. I have been struggling with harmful, aggressive OCD for over 3 years now. I live with a few people and I have a little sister. This book challenges our basic instincts about how to help fearful kids and will serve as the antidote for an anxious nation of kids and their parents. I have a feeling it’s not OCD. This doctor is right on the money. I’m 16 yeas of age now. I just didn’t want to be on medication. Is there anyone else who you could see in the meantime until your psychologist gets back? It is actually hilarious to me now, but at the time it can feel very real and scary! Thank you all and I hope you guys fine solutions as well. You might start by talking with your parents and your doctors about your symptoms, so that you’re not fighting this battle by yourself. Not “broken”, but “fractured”. Trying to convince yourself that you would never act on your thoughts. Same – am always worried that I’ve offended or physically hurt someone and will continually check news etc to make sure I haven’t. Anyways, STAY STRONG. Came with a sudden force at night not long after she angered me. I had trouble with this and it got to the point where I started to look for a weapon. Its so easy to find the problems of others but with myself it’s so hard. Peace to you and yours! Thanks so much for your help. I have OCD and have suffered from physical and mental abuse which has made me over protective. there is a saying: if you say a word many times, the word makes it into reality. I have been struggeling with unwanted thoughts for a while. 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